♥ Wednesday, February 07, 2007
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♥ 6:25 PM ♥
jux feel so dead recently.. i couldn't boost up my mood no matter how hard i tried. my heart feels so heavy.. it has been a long time since i have tis feeling. feel like im losing control in everything!! and i really hate the way i am now. so pessimistic. tis is jux not the usual me!!
btw, u still decided to go. i know i cant change ur mind as u a so determine about it. although till now i still don really agree on tt, i know u've already set ur mind on it. it's ur choice anyway. u decided to choose tis path for urself u'll jux have to bear for all the consequences if there is any. i'll jux pray hard for u here.
at first i really tot of giving up. don know why, i jux feel tired of everything and couldn't agree wif u about it. but looking at the positive side, it may not be tt bad afterall. i should have confidence in u. although im sad, im angry but im not going to give up on u who i cherish n love. im a strong gal!! i wont be defeated easily. im going to hang on n overcome all these n support u... not sure will i success. i will try but i need ur support n u standing by me..
do u realise it? u've changed. u a so confident in urself now. i see the charm releasing from u. in contrast i've become so dead, so low self-esteem. the better u've changed the more im scare tt i will lose u. ahha.im obsessive over u i guess. so from today onwards. im going to gain back all my confidence so tt we will be the most compatible pair~~ i wan u to be proud of me!^^ promise me u will take very good care of urself k.
pris, thanx very much for being there~~ i love u~~
I'd love a hug a day
To keep the sadness away ♥